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Oh boy oh boy….

Can’t believe 4 months just flew by….JUST LIKE THAT….Snap of a finger, no, 2 fingers,  no no…incorrect, 1 finger and the thumb! that’s right! omg….Well, lots been happening since end of last year…..2008 is a start of a great year, I’m pretty sure. Lets just summarize everything in short points, shall we?

I changed my job, for a better one of course
I finished up my bachelors, graduating in this April, woohooo!
I enrolled into another course, Grad Dip in Int Biz
I met and made new friends
I’m reading more academic books now, seriously… it felt like back in highschool days
I got fat….hmm, good thing?
I’ve moved apartments, nearer to Uni, double woohoo!
I’ve changed Baha’i community due to my move
I joined more social Baha’i activities and made awesome friends! YAY!
I finally got a new phone (renew contract), be gone you cranky unreliable old phone!
I learnt to spit shit like the angmohs….well well, isn’t that "fantastic" hey?

Wait, wait, there’s more!!
My brother is here for 6months, ONLY? yea….
But its ok, my sister is here too…..for good!! *grins*

Nothing’s all good throughout though….
I lacked of sleep all the time
I hardly can find enough time to do things
I’ve lost my friends…not literally….they had to go back Kuching….you guys know who you are! Come back, babes! Miss you lots!
Etc Etc….

hehe…no complaints! Happy with what I have and don’t have as well. Counting my blessings…..I’m also starting to count chickens before the eggs were even laid…! making plans….huge ones, minor ones…i know they don’t always work, but I know it’ll bound to hit one!…..most likely Plan E. Lalala…..gotta go bath and catch up with books and articles….Be back in a month’s time for another update on my online diary, if not earlier.

Bugs and me…..

Most annoying? Definitely flies….God dammit, these Aussie fat flies~!

Most disgusting? Cockroaches! Eewww~

Most cute? Ladybug….teehehehe…See? i dont totally hate insects!

Most intriguing? Praying mantis! never fail to arouse my curiosity!

Most feared? killer wasps!!!! who dont? then they aint human!~

Most stupid? bees i guess…..they bang on the windows all the time

Most beautiful? Butterfly lo….

Most ugly??? Majority of them are! HAHAHA

Most stinky!? winged termites!! arghh!! and also the stinky bug! no idea whatsitname!

Most admired by me? ants….boy oh boy..never give up, do they?

Most bullied by me? dragonfly…hahahaha…long story

My enemy? Mosquitoes! wat to do? they suck me blood wat!

My friend? i seriously doubt that will happen….

There you go…bugs and me

Next up, animals and I…..if im bored enough to blog on one…hehe!

Time

Time passes by……

Time goes on……

Time flies……

Time never comes back, not even once……ever!

Im sitting here

As time slips by……

Sometimes Im compensated for it, most of the time - NOT……

Im waiting

Tic toc tic toc……

For something special to happen, yet I have no idea what……

Time oh time, where forth has Thou gone!

Im tired……

Im sleepy……

Im hungry……

Im grouchy……

Im moody……

Im damn sore!

I want this and I want that

Impatient yet I dont want time to go too fast!

What if I die now?

My times up??

My time stops and gone forever???

I want answers, but I fear the truth……it hurts at times??

Hello?

What am I doing??

Why am I even typing this???

All I know is that……I finished my finals

And Im sitting here……lazily……typing at random

Of whatever that comes across my mind!

This is stupid!

This is absurd!!

Yet I know you’re reading it! HAHAHA

You must be bored……

You must be eager to know what a blog entry with TIME as a title is all about!!

Well……

I can tell you this honestly……

YOU ARE WASTING PRECIOUS TIME!!

Teehehehe, they say time is money……

And Im happily spending your "money"!!

Thanks……

Thank you all……

I know Im nutty

Nuttier than coconut, hazelnut or even peanut

But hey, thats who I am……

The one who always chase after time

The one who constantly begs for more time

The one who whines the fact that there’s ONLY 24hrs a day

The one and only……

ME!

I know you LOVE me……

And I LOVE YOU too……

::: The End :::

He has beautiful eyes

He has a fit body

He is happy when he sees me (& he shows it! aawww)

He accompanies me while I brush my teeth every morning

He peeks while I shower

He bears with it while I do my "business"

He is cool

He is unique, one of a kind

He is my one and only

He is my Hiro!

~The goldfish who lives in the bathroom~

Hm….

Someone asked for half a dozen of nuggets the other day. I was thinking to myself….is it that hard to say the word "six"?? I mean….half a dozen of nuggets please- its like 6 words; when you can just say 3 words- six nuggets please!! trying to imply something there?? smarter perhaps? or "being cool"? Hmm….pondering~~

and so, I came up with my own too…..trying to be impressive~ wahhahahaa….smartass~ this is what I came up with….

1. Hi, I’m two decades and two years old (instead of Hi, I’m 22 years old)

2. Can I have triple kolo mee to go? Tapao sa pao lah!

3. Roses are red, violets are blue; the weather is fine, how bout you? (new version of How are you?)

kakkakkakakakkaa…..sot liaw…i got caught in the cold rain last night….plus the chilly wind…..now i’ve got wet nose. Blah….finals soon lar…..cant afford to get sicky! lalalala….maybe i should go sleep now!

Ever heard of "dreams come true"??? Im sure I’ve heard a song by that name~ prolly in the chorus or something.

And with all those dreams that I’m having lately….I really do hope they all dont materialise! Weird weird dreams…..

Okay…on the 1 Nov night- I dreamt of little cute kitties. Intially, they are soo adorable, until they started cling onto my left leg. Clawed or bit into my leg, Im not sure…..I was too terrified of the fact 5 or was it 6 kitties clinging onto my leg (lower part of leg by the way, under the kneecap area). I dont know for whatever reasons!!! I kindly whacked them on the heads to shoo them off….manatau~~ they bit me! or clawed me, i dont know! PAIN LO!!….then I really WHACKED them hard, one by one….sending them flying in al directions. *_*"  cilaka….what kind of stupid dream is that?? oh yea…i think….most of the kitties went unconscious. Or did they died? I never found out….coz I woke up after that….feeling full of guilt. Wth~

then the next night….I dreamt….i was eating chewing gum. I dont really fancy gum anyway, they make me hungry really fast. Anyway, no idea where it comes from or why im chewing it, but thats how the story goes. Heck…my tooth stuck onto the gum, or the other way round? same thing!!!! the point is….all my teeth started to fall out…..like there wasnt any roots to ALL my teeth at all. WTF!!! really WTF! I moved my tongue around to check on the rest of the teeth (still attached) and they also started to loosen up and fall out! Ahhhhhhhhhhh….spitting blood whn i wana talk….refuse to communicate coz im afraid some teeth might drop out of my mouth!! felt airy inside….only gum bumping on gum. My gum of coz! not that stupid chewing gum. Whooosh~~ where the hell is the dentist!!!??? i cant find one!! can u believe that??? i suppose we can "direct" our dream, somewhat somehow, no??? so..no dentist for me. And my mouth kept filling up with fallen teeth, mixed with blood…it felt soo REAL!!! like the whole mouth is FULL…..and yea- YUCKS!! i think i was crying in my dream…..well wont you, in my situation??? damn petrified! helpless!! confused!! pain!! but surprisingly I wasnt crying when i woke…..hehhehehehehhe….eh eh!! no laughin matter actually….coz….i REALLY HAD this dream before…..of losing all my teeth…and i wont open my mouth (to communicate, that is)…coz my teeth will all fall outa my mouth! so there….i kept my mouth shut - big and full….THIS IS the SECOND time! and i really hope…..it doesn mean anything. I mean….i had weird dreams, sad dreams, scary dreams, stupid dreams, WHY no love dreams, i wonder? back to topic….what im trying to say is…..all of my dreams happened once and thats it…..i dont get same dreams again! never…..but this?? ngaitii…well…probably the dreams that kept repeating (similiar ones) is that Im always being chased by faceless people, or that Im having hard challenges- climbing mountains, jumping over high fence, running fast marathon etc. Waking up, exhausted….stupid!

Maybe its high time i go see a dentist….check up or something. That dream really freaked me out~ but i’ll wait til i get back to kch. Too exp here….unless i get the SAME FREAKING DREAM AGAIN for the THIRD time…..and yea…..!! dentist, here i come! come to think of it….i havnt seen a dentist since primary 3?? and thats not even a proper dentist i think. the school’s mini dentist??? i consider them "nurse" or missy la~

anyway…i really really really hope dreams dont come true…..well…i never dreamt of being rich or married to the right guy or being successful and stuffs like that….and why not, i really wonder~~ *ponder ponder* hehhehehee….what the heck! hopefully tonight will be a deep sleep all through out! no dreams pleaseeeeeeeeee!!!!

Dear Diary….

Haha….Im back. I did something unthinkable today….I’ve never done it before in my life….and I really dont know why I did it anyway….But it felt great tho~ and thats all it matters~ i think! =)

I spent close to 100 bucks. Uh oh, huh?? hehehe…*sheepish grins* …yup, Aussie dollars. Whoa…..I know i know, thats like RM300 back in msia….Gone, just like that.

I’ve been saving….from what I earned from McD. The most I spent is on food, grocery~ Kinda all the basic necessities of life~ But this time….i spent on WANTS! not needs. Geez….I havnt spoil myself with my hard earned money yet…..but not today….today was a KABOOM! this is what happens when you try to resisit the tempation for a long LONG time. Always thinking….Im gonna save enough to buy this or that….save save save….when will it end? But the time I think I’ve save enough, that item I wanted probably’s gone~ hehehe….So, i was thinking last night….whats the point of earning all this money and not spending part of it on myself, the HARD worker, ey! and I was determined to spend- oh yesh….its high time I spend! Who knows…I might drop dead anytime?….and my money??!! Noooooooo~~ I’ll crawl back from heaven or hell or whatever, just to spend MY money, I tell you! =p

anyway….I needed work pants for my new work. Thats a need. I needed a pair of heels, coz I only have one here! so, basically…Im stil spending on needs! *trying to outsmart myself, convince myself that I’m not "throwing money" anyhow*…..hahahhaha….Off I went, by myself to Melbourne Central. Should have brought a friend….then prolly I wont have spent that much! hehehe….hey hey…no point crying over spilt milk. Hehhe…I’m not crying…in fact, Im happy the milk spilt!!

Right, the first stop- ValleyGirl. Ahh…and 75% of what I spent goes to this store~ Hurray, you guys! Well, initially….I got myself the work pants. Then I picked out 2 pairs of jeans. Walk walk walk…..picked another 2 cardigans…..then a collar shirt, and lastly….a sleeveless tee. *peng*……So, this is HOW it felt having own money to spend!!! HEHEHHEHEHEHEHEHE! total costs- $70

Okay….next I went to Dutchess. Thought of getting a bag, coz I’ve been using just one for a long time. Needed some variety. Was about to purchase one, when I "accidentally" converted the money back to RM. Whoa….siaw meh….RM90 for a bag~ Ahh…quickly throw the bag back to its shelf. hehhehee….went on to my initial purpose- my high heels. Okie…..got this pair, discounted and costs - $25. Fine….I’ll take it. Im lazy to go shopping along Smith St or Bridge Rd. Probably worried that I’ll spend MORE~ since im in a "dangerous" mood today - wild shopping spree mood, that is.

Thats $95 spent for the day~ Bye bye 6 hours of labor in McD~ I only realised the heels were damn expensive when i was in the train. Converted again….approx RM75 for a pairs of heels. WTH! never mind, never mind. I earn aussie dollar, i spend aussie dollar. Still reasonable. CAnnot convert or bloody guilty conscience la me!

Well diary? Watcha think?? did I went overboard? $95 for 8 items, that is- 1 pair of heels, 2 pairs of jeans, 1 pair of work pants, 2 cardigans, 1 collarshirt and 1 sleeveless tee. Aiya….think so much for what woh…..already spent liaw…not like I can refund back. HEHHEE…the only solution- EARN MORE THIS DECEMBER HOLIDAYS!

p/s: 10 long months of not shopping….is a killer~

Dear Diary,

Should this even be considered a diary? hah! anyway…..when i say its a diary entry, then it is one, beat it!

So, whats up lately, huh? "i dont know"…thats what everyone says….the truth is…..there’s too much happening that not yet one comes to your mind when someone asked that freaking question! blah….

why is my mood soo jiet, you ask? i tell you whats jiet!! having disturbed, troubled, sleepless nights, thats what. So much so that i can even catch a cat nap in the train, from hawthorn to glenferrie. Wth….thats like one stop to the other. Gosh….i AM tired.

Oh…to all my "lovely" customers, you bloody f*cking retards! for one, make up your mind before ordering! changing orders aint easy, coz first, most likely the guys behind in the kitchen already started making/or even finished making once i pressed the button on screen. Refund your money, i need to get the manager. Get change, i need to shout for them too. Ish~ So, these arent really the problems. The REAL problem is….dont get pissed off at me coz things dont go your way! Am i not human? am i not having a good day as well, coz of u, thank you? think for others, for goodness sake! not always YOU YOU YOU and YOU ALONE. All over what? a shitty burger? not that its so digusting…but hell, its edible okay! People, you are just being fussy! dont want this and that in the burger, you might as well dont order the burger. How can you consider it a burger when u want it without the meat and cheese? isnt that a piece of bun with mayo? GO HOME and make one yourself! that’ll save your money and save MY time. Idiots, i say. Even so you make confusing orders, dont expect me to understand you well. I may repeat coz i wan to be sure i got it right. Is it necessary to even get annoyed? I had a long day too, you know, but i guess you guys never noticed. Selfish bunch of peeps.

right….i got some of jiet-ness away…..HAHHAHAHHAA…..cooling down, bebeh~

hmm…..maybe i should go off now…to relax….my head is still spinning from reading assignments. Haiz….

Well diary, thank you for sharing part of my jiet-ness, though i have tonnes of them…..slowing releasing k? BANKAI stage? not yet!

Kena tagged by my lil Kawaii twin sis! Mei-mei says must do, so "must" listen to her loh, or later she tiew me~ hehehe~

What really is fear? How does one define FEAR? Each and everyone will have different definition of fear, right? Some fear heights, some fear spiders, cockroaches, snakes and whatever yucky looking creatures. Or some are afraid of the dark, ghost probably? Yea…and all these make ya scream and shout~ Does anyone fear death? Or even Hell? It really makes me wonder, then ponder what do I actually fear, when someone threw that question at me awhile ago~

Fear, fear, fear…… I don’t consider the above mentioned as what I fear. I don’t scream my lungs out when I came across spiders. And I chase after cockroaches coz I hate them, not fear them! Snakes? Hmm…there was once, I was absorbed in looking at one funny looking guava on the tree and I didn’t even realized there was a yellow-striped snake, parallel to the branch (with the guava) staring back at me. I was like 2 inches away from the snake. Damn close….of coz I got shocked by it but can’t seem to bring myself to shout or scream. Weird. Same goes with the cicaks that fell on my shoulders or legs or even head. Just felt eeky and brushed them off, that’s all. Heartbeats missed a beat, but no scream. Why oh why? Haha….not my specialty, I guess.

Death? Ahh….sooner or later I will move on to the next world. There’s no fear with that issue. Just that, I pray I won’t die suffering and also hope that I’ll “go” before my loved ones. I’m selfish. Really selfish, can’t bare the pain of losing someone that I rather “go” first. Hell? What did I do wrong? Nothing “serious” to date. No worries *wink*

I fear UNFAMILIARITY. I fear losing my usual CONFIDENCE. And I fear losing my LOVED ONES. Odd isn’t it? I like being confidence in anything I do. Though I may not know what the hell I’m doing, maybe most of the time, but hey….when I have “confidence”, be it real or fake out, everything seems to be a piece of cake! Everything will fall in place as it should be. It’s kinda like being optimistic anyway. Well, it’s only when I’m unfamiliar with something, someone or someplace, that’s where FEAR strikes. Sweaty palms, lost of appetite, unpeaceful sleeps, nervousness or being irate are the few tail-tail signs. Unfamiliarity and lost of confidence go hand in hand, hence resulting- I fear the unknown. HAHAHAHA…..really what! That’s what I fear. But what I really fear- is losing family members. My family? 6 of us, inclusive of myself. And yesh….I fear losing myself too! Ehehhee….go nuts and wacko? No way, hopefully! Feel all so shitty when I had dreams as such. Not always of coz (sheesh), but I had twice (different person died) to date and if that’s not enough to freak me out, what is!? Woke up with tears in my eyes, still. Hmm….must had been damn realistic.

Right…..enough crapping…..time to get some sleep. Work to be done first thing in the morning. Fear not, come what may…..*grins*